Often, before I fall asleep, I ask questions of the air in hope that the Holy Spirit or one of His messengers would hear and answer as my mind leaves this realm to enter the other one behind closed eyes.
Most often I do not receive answers but rather whatever I am instructed to hear. Like a classroom where the teacher lays out the necessary curriculum for a particular test or qualification.
Every now and then though, I get an answer.
I am loathe to share this deeply private answer to a deeply private prayer. But I am instructed to make these dreams public.
Shocking as this dream may be to many who read it, the theology is sound.
Dream 162
Upon the land beneath Michael’s calf there is a large old tree to which, a day before this dream, we beat a path and made a clearing.
The tree is huge, I think two hundred seated guests would very comfortably find refuge from the Sun beneath its mottled leaves.
To add to the splendor, both tree and clearing border the rocky, reeded river that joyfully trundles past them. It is as if this place was created solely for the purpose of being painted or photographed. That, or it fantastically sprang from the imagination of an artist onto canvas and from there I to our realm.
It is beneath this tree, staring out at the river, that I hear Uriel speak beside me. And his smooth tenor and flowing face bring with them a sacred atmosphere in a place that is already so special.
Uriel:
“Not all that the Father plans comes to fruition.”
Me:
“Say what again?”
Uriel:
“Were it so, the world would be a vastly different place. Or do you think it is His will that so many suffer at the hands of spite and lust and greed? The very best architect may design what he may but if the builders refuse to follow the blueprint, the house may as well be built without it.
This is the gamble of free will son of sorrow.
For the Father though, this is not a gamble but a hope that mankind will choose to find its way back to the tree of life.”
Me:
“So He does not intervene at all?”
Uriel:
“His intervention is an exceptional rarity. Beyond comfort, guidance and instruction, the Father gives His children the space to evolve spiritually as an entire collective. This is why the seven spirits are here, so that you may become as the Father is and accept the manifestation of the word as law and Lord of your own choosing.
Know this son of sorrow:
You are as you are and will be the same person for eternity. Heaven on earth is when that person you choose to be is laden with the fruit of the spirit.
To make disciples who bring heaven to earth is the assignment of every believer. The architect has shared His blueprint and now the workers must make vision a reality.
But if the workers are slack, nothing is built.”
Me:
“A sobering thought, and somewhat intimidating.”
Uriel:
“A spiritual war rages for the hearts and minds of man. Will man choose to confirm the love of God or contend against it? It is the Father’s desire that none should perish yet more shall perish than shall be saved. For heaven is a place prepared for those who love love and live to confirm love and who are generous at the very core of their spirit.
Perfection means nothing, love means everything. If you grasp this, you will grasp the plan.
If Jesus is Lord to you, you will love. If not, you will not.”
Me:
“Is barrenness part of the plan?”
Uriel:
“Ah, we come to the question that irks the Courier so.”
Me:
“Seventeen years of trying to have children Uriel. Seventeen years. Both my wife and I have been for multiple tests only to be found medically sound. Even small anomalies that usually have little to no impact have been surgically corrected. We have been prayed over by every prophet, pastor and intercessor we come across and have prayed over ourselves. We have relaxed about it, pushed our minds away from it and taken advise of both naturalist and chemist. Yet nothing. We choose, of our own free will, to have children. Yet our free will is shunned. I do not want a vague answer Uriel, We want children.”
Uriel:
“You will not like the answer son of sorrow.”
Me:
“Try me.”
Uriel:
“The blueprint is dependent upon the workers. You are a worker. Your assignment is so important that every possible distraction has been removed. No other ministry attempt will work, no other business attempt will work. Gatherer shuts down every distraction and because you and your wife agreed to pay any price, he has closed her womb.
Even with your full focus is there a chance that this assignment will skip two generations. The body of Christ is so disobedient and so collectively selfish that they would rather ignore the blueprint and live in luxury than see poverty and the resulting injustices eradicated.
We depend on your faith and the faith of your wife to hold true through the storms of lack son of sorrow and her pregnancy and children would force you into the hands of mammon.
Your thoughts would move from kingdom priorities to household priorities and you would build a ministry that focuses on financial abundance. As a team, you are extremely loyal and children would split that loyalty to this assignment.
Answer this son of sorrow:
Would you leave your wife and home to pray for months, even years as you are now if you had children? Or would you do things differently?”
I don’t answer. I stand silently.
Uriel:
“It is not this way for everyone. It is this way for those who are willing to pay the price. Your children will come when they are no longer a threat to your assignment. Or if you choose to ignore the assignment altogether they will come even sooner.
It was thus with Sarah and Hannah and it is thus with your wife.
But know that when your children come, they will receive a double anointing and they will be exceedingly blessed for what you have done.”
Me:
“So my job is just to have faith and wait?”
Uriel:
“Make the vision plain, have faith and from this moment forth, ask no man for anything. Commit yourself to prayer and study, and share only a tithe of your time with man.
The window begins to close but fear not, all of heaven has faith that this vision shall come to pass.
Two billion souls will be saved, only be steadfast, be strong, be courageous, the kingdom is all.”
Me:
“I will do my part, I will bare this cross, the kingdom is all.”
I wake up.