I feel like I am in the womb of the universe.
I float through time and space curled into the fetal position as billions of stars, moons and planets appear suddenly before whizzing past me to join all f creation.
Genesis has not ended. The power of creator has no end. Creation continues as the universe expands in every direction.
The zealous power of God is on such vivid display that I feel like I am in a cauldron of nuclear energy. Entire galaxies are born in the blink of an eye. The process is explosive, fast, powerful beyond imagining. The intensity of it all completely overwhelming. I can feel the hungry pull of gravity as moons rotate around planets and planets rotate around Suns.
The fierceness of it all threatens to stop my heart. It is just too much for my mind to comprehend. I don’t even know if my eternal spirit can comprehend this. Power, power, power! Wonder working power! The song plays in my spirit over and over as I begin to realize what I am experiencing, or rather ‘who’ I am experiencing.
I am here for millenia, outside the limitations of time that constrain my body on earth. Thousands o years pass before the sheer frenetic activity has some semblance of normality to me. Even then, it still threatens to overwhelm me as this unknowable display of creative power continues to sculpt the universe around me.
Now I slowly start to become aware of a presence. It is a being so large and powerful that simply becoming aware of its presence takes thousands of years. Thousands more pass until I can fathom who this is and I finally realize that I am in the presence of the spirit of the fear of the lord.
At that sudden realization I am overcome with such powerful waves of love, the fiercest love you can imagine. No, WAY BEYOND what any of us can imagine.
It feels like my very molecular structure is being separated so that every atom may be loved individually.
I don’t know if any words I can type will be able to convey this. All I can ask you to do is put on your favorite worship song and curl up into the fetal position. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring you an awareness of the spirit of the fear of the Lord. Even a small taste of this fierce love is enough to heal whatever is broken in your spirit.
As I am scrutinized by this love, I become aware that it transcends my sin. My inadequacies mean nothing here. My mistakes are of no consequence. This incredible force of the nature of God is incapable of seeing anything that is not before the throne of God. I get the impression that though the spirit of the fear of the Lord inhabits the entire universe and is present in every atom, he is completely unaware of the sinful nature of man. He is such a force of acceptance and inclusion that he is not even aware of Satan. Or rather, he has pushed all evil out of his consciousness. I get the impression that he is only capable of this fierce love. That this expanding universe around me is an explosive expression of uncontainable love.
No words can communicate how I feel in the presence of this spirit. And this is only one of seven who dwell before the throne of God.
How large must this throne be if this powerful being who shapes and creates perfectly automates ecosystems throughout the universe simply dwells at the foot of it.
I am overcome with wonder and awe. And now I hear it.
The stars are singing. They are literally singing. The entire universe is a choir that works in such beautiful harmony that I suddenly realize what an abomination division must be in the sight of the Lord. I can feel how the stars reach out to one another, hungry to meld their voices in perfect unity. It is as if the very nature of God is to be one. The song itself calls to us. I feel it reach towards me, slowly, yet the speed of light, it sings ‘echad’, ‘echad’, ‘echad’.
Though they are light years apart. Though it takes billions of years to travel from one end of the universe to the other at the speed of light, light reaches out to love whatever it touches.
The revelation hits me like a sledge hammer to the gut. These incredible burning entities are containers of the love of God. Our Sun, perfectly sized to have a loving relationship with earth. Perfectly distanced so that it may sustain life. Everything on earth is sustained by our Sun. Without it, everything dies.
The absence of the Sun would leave earth to freeze over and become a icy desert.
But the presence of the Sun is the presence of life and the presence of the love of God.
Every leaf is created to take that expression of love and convert it into energy. That energy converts to become the fruit that every living thing eats. Energy becomes energy. Every living thing is made up of Sunlight.
The fierce love of God is placed all over the universe in the form of physical matter. And that matter, that concentrated love, burns brightly to become suns and stars.
Can you even comprehend what you are reading right now?
There is no life without the love of God.
The Sun that you feel upon your face is an actual, physical expression of love. It is a piece of the heart of God.
Every ray of light that hits this earth of ours is a reaching out by a zealous created force that would melt the skin off your bones if it were too close. What love is this?
This powerful, overwhelming love is nothing I can adequately explain. This creative presence that spans the entire created universe and expands the universe in every direction, like an ever expanding sphere of unfathomable passion.
This is the spirit of the fear of the Lord.
There is much that I must still share. But let us stop here for now.
